RedRavenPoems

I lay here in the dark. Loneliness deep within my heart. I’ve tried to make it through the day. I’ve tried to laugh and play.

No matter what I do, I have to be just fine. I cannot make a sound, I cannot speak my mind.

I have bills to pay. Things to do. Responsibilities that must be met. I cannot even speak of what’s in my head.

To do so gets me mocked. Told attention is what I sought. To stay in the center light, and always be in clearest sight.

Yet I long to sink into the shadows. Keep my self removed. I seek to blend into the background. Let others fill those shoes.

I did not ask to be this way. To feel the things I do. I’d wish it all to be long gone, if only this would come true.

So I paste on a smile, hide my pain. Hide the feelings of inadequate shame. I cannot share for I’ll get the blame. Accused of playing games.

I want to scream I want to shout. I want to run all about. Rid myself of all my doubt.

Yet it’s chained me through and through. A thought that makes me feel small and Blue.