RedRavenPoems

A friend my dear is all I’ll ever be.
From now until the end of eternity.

I feel more deeply than you’ll ever see.
But I’ll hide it, for I know it will never be.

I have nothing to offer, nothing to gain.
Nothing of interest, I’m far too plain.

With others, I’ve tried, yet always have failed.
So I won’t even bother, though I’m under your spell.

I love too much, I care too deep.
I end up alone, left to bitterly weep.

The scar’s I carry the burdens I shoulder.
Weigh me down, heavy as I grow older.

Words were spoken in the past that strike still.
Make me shudder, fill me with terror thrill.

I’ve lost my courage, I’m filled with doubts.
Heard nothing, but past screams and shouts.

So I lock it away, hold it all at bay.
For to tell you such a price I would pay.

I would lose it all, again I know.
That would finally break me, fill my heart with woe.

I’d be broken and battered down to my soul.
This time I’d not come back, It’s true I know.

I hear the words playing through my mind.
I can’t escape, not this time.

So I hold my feelings on a tight leash.
Hating myself for being so weak.