I bleed inside, behind a smile it hides. When any ask, I say I’m fine. Misery is my companion, I revel in her company. But anymore she’s all there is for me. I smile, I laugh, I keep everyone guessing. They look at me, and think I’m counting blessings. Yet the pain in my eyes, Continue reading

I regret the things I’ve said. Words that should have stayed inside instead. Things that spoken filled me with dread, for whatever way this path now lead. Yet unspoken words I regret even more. They cut much deeper wounds. Actions taken, or those left behind. Which is more cruel, will be known in time. So Continue reading

Boredom takes a heavy toll On my mind and indeed my soul. Fills it with thoughts of the blackest hue For the darkness these things indeed woo. I sit here staring at the wall Wondering why things are this way Dreaming of wonders big and small. Dashing away in my mind to play. The shadows Continue reading

Why won’t you stay out of my mind. Why do I find you here all the time. I walked away to keep the dark thoughts at bay, Yet I find them with me still. I still hear the words, feel the harsh slaps. Still feel the pain across my back. It doesn’t take much to Continue reading

I tried so hard to love you. To beg and plead for your affection. But you never spared me a place. Besides the hate you threw in advance. Yet when I would have enough. And towards the door I would walk. You beg and plead. Down on bended knee. I should have known better than Continue reading

It’s gone away again, for a time. This thing I call a mind. It drifts away on wings sublime, headed for the happier times. When nothing was wrong, when there was no doubt. Or fearsome, hateful, screaming shouts. I wish it would return again. Yet I know not when it will. Continue reading

Lost in thought no where to be found. It seems like such a wonderful thing. I can be in my mind with no one around, yet instead often sorrow does it bring. Too many memories filled with pain. Too much to handle many filled with shame. Too much to take and file away. So much Continue reading

I love you more than you will ever know. Far more than I’ll ever be able to show. I held you tight when you were born, so tiny and frail. Such a perfect sight, it filled me with utter delight. I saw you open your eyes so bright, They were filled with the purest light. Continue reading